It’s been a hectic few days trying to get back into the swing of working, especially since I’ve been going in at 8 or 9 am. There’s also the fact that I basically have no idea what I’m doing and by the time I get off work, I’m exhausted and have four hours before I have to go to sleep so I can wake up and do it again.
In between all of that, though, I’ve had one question put to me repeatedly by friends and family, “How is it?”
The only way I can possibly put it is, “It’s a grocery store job.”
I mean, what do people expect me to say? It’s everything I ever wanted? It’s much better than I expected? It’s a job and it’s exactly what I expected. I stand there. I take items out of a cart. I move the items across the scanner or punch in a series of numbers that relate to the item. Those items are put into a bag. I take their money, hand them receipt and off they go. Wash, rinse, repeat.
Part of me really, really wishes I had just stayed on unemployment and waited it out. The other part of me realizes that I really need a job in order to make it to a point where I can find another job. The other thing I keep hearing from friends and family is, “It’s always easier to get a job when you already have one.”
But is that really true? Is it easier? I mean, I worked at my last job for four years and I don’t think I was any more capable of getting a different job than I was when I was on unemployment. Of course with the money I was making and the fact that I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I was much less motivated to do something different. Being back to barely making enough to survive will probably provide the necessary jolt to keep me going in my job search.
There’s also the fact that several companies actually admit to completely ignoring applications from unemployed people. That’s just insane! It’s the people who don’t have jobs who really need them! I mean, I’m sure people like myself with menial jobs need better jobs too. But I think it would be more fair if everyone qualified was given a chance. Wouldn’t a manager rather hire the person who is most qualified rather than the person who just so happens to be lucky enough not to lose their job in this economy? Apparently not.
Frankly, I think the way businesses are run these days needs a serious makeover. Unfortunately that won’t happen until several other things in this country get a makeover. But I’m not here to discuss politics.
So here is my to-do list for the last part of 2012 ( which has NOT turned out the way I had anticipated…):
- Try my best not to kill any biotches at the grocery store
- Continue to look for and apply to better jobs
- Continue taking online courses
- Continue attempting to get an internship/volunteer position
- Put together my graduate school application
- Have as much fun as humanly possible because I realized I was letting my job drain my life of happiness and enjoyment
I think these are relatively manageable things. I started my Craft of Magazine Writing Course today. And finish my Intro to Microsoft Excel 2010 next week. I was hoping to start Introduction to Internet Writing Markets today as well. I just can’t afford to take 2 classes at the same time right now unfortunately.
Anyways, be prepared for amusing/enraging/sarcastic anecdotes from my new job! I already have some pretty good ones.